This morning I still feel emotionally drained. She has absolutely no idea what she wants. Last night I worked late not getting home till almost 6pm. When I got home she had made dinner but I went upstairs and got changed when I came down she asked how my day was. I told her it was long and I was tired and really did not engage her much in conversation.
I talked to my son a little bit. After dinner I cleaned up the dishes and she then went for a walk with the neighbor ladies. When she got home she asked if I wanted to take the dog for a walk, I declined. She went upstairs and got changed and then came down and sat on the couch with me, right next to me. We did a little talking but I made my answers short and she touched my leg a couple of times while we watch tv. WTF is up with that BS.
I pull away and she comes after me but when I stop pulling away she takes a step back. I fu**ing hate games, I’m not in high school and I don’t need this chitt. Do it or don’t, commit or don’t, get close to me or don’t but this back and forth should I or shouldn’t I is ridiculous. I am nearing the end of my patience. I want to continue being with her, spending time with her but not without some sort of effort on her part. And not without some open honest communication about where we are, where we have been and where we are going. And I will be second fiddle to no one, I’m better than that and I deserve someone to give me their whole shelf and nothing short of that will do.
I'll be quite honest Tim and you won't like this...
you have NFC brother...
you and your sitch....tame compared to one I know about that is no longer posted about here...and the guy is still working like hell..and he gets weekly pull-backs...his W is there one minute, gone the next..he faces financial ruin(bankruptcy)..has been doing this for 1 year +...has lost almost all his possessions
games..brother..you don't know games...how would you like it if she had sex with you one week, then when dark on your assss the next?? maybe dark for weeks at a time?? maybe sweet as mollasses one minute and blaming it all on you the next..
he's in the alternate by the way if you ever want to hear from him..just let me know..Him and I talk almost every day..
remember how I said, "don't let that talk with her about where she is, get you spinning"...
got to stay emotionally centered brother..at all times..
