For the Guy with Kids and a WW Twenty Two

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Dunno.

I have told her on more than a few occassions that I was letting her go. Didn't really, as we all know.

She knows exactly how I feel about dickhead. I'm sure the conversation about our future relationship will come about some time and the fact that it won't be what it could be as long as he is in the picture.

Me demanding her to give him up....I might as well go to the beach and tell the waves to stop.



We had some conversation today. Apparantly she has been off today as well as yesterday. Found out the part of her day yesterday was spent signing up D7 for Ymca afterschool care and qualifying for assistance. She was able to get about a $50 discount. I'll take what I can get. She brought an issue concerning S14 again that happened yesterday and him being inconsiderate. Told me she was going to have a talk with him, that he was in trouble with her.

Again? She told me she was going to talk to him last week. Same deal with her. So hard for her to have to say no to him and look like that bad parent. So important to her to look more like his friend.

I wonder where he gets if from? She blames his dad, the stupida.

I offered my take and told her she needs to change the way she deals with him, as usual, and she said its something she is working on. She always says that. We had a couple laughs. I told her that D7 was playing with her 'rats' and she kept laughing and trying to correct me.

"They're hamsters, silly."
"As far as I'm concerned, they're rats."

She also told me about her day today. She had just left the food stamp office and she was telling me a little bit about it. How she felt like she was being treated. We also spoke a little about New Years, because I asked her if she had any thoughts.

She offered to stay with the girls if I was trying to go out myself, and I had to tell her that I WASN'T trying to go out, but figure out what the kids and I were going to do. She mentioned that I had wanted to have a get together at my house, but I told her that I think that that had fallen through. I did tell her that I might take them to the downtown celebration, but wasn't sure. I told her that I'll let her know what I decide.

She only spoke to D7, because at the time, D11 was still asleep.

If only I could get the thought out of my mind that OM is staying with her this whole week. I have the girls and S14 is staying with his dad this whole week, so I figured that was her plan for the week. Living out more of the fantasy.

Oh well, keeping myself busy with my girlies and right now, watching Rush in concert in Rio.

Love Rush. My favorite band in high school. Neil Peart is a drum...well, I won't say god, but ya'll know what I mean.

And BTW, today, New Years Eve is Beej's birthday.
So if your reading, Happy Birthday, sweety.