hey there, the "first" are always the hardest, hug your little ones and focus on what you do have. Negative thoughts are so strong, it's easy to get lost in them, fight them, KNOW that you will be ok, that you will make it regardless, do something different for nyear's.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
