LD, can't write much now as we are going to a movie. Just wanted to tell you that my prayers of YEARS, for clarity, were not answered with letters in the sky...Often it was sort of a 51% feeling for something and 49% against. It's foggy at times, and the lines were shifty and blurring. I really want you to know that sometimes there is clarity, but sometimes it isn't clear to US, or it isn't black and white the way we present it to God. As Amy says, listen. And ask again. I don't think God tires of us asking or praying for HIS will...and answers. He doesn't say "Crap, is LD praying/nagging ME again?" I think he always wants to be included in our lives. Keep inviting Him in.
You will get answers, and strength, sometimes separately, sometimes together. For me, always asking myself when presented with a choice was whether it helped my goal of GAL and providing love, security and dignity in the face of heartache, for my kids...OR was it being judgmental or punitive. Sometimes that was easy to answer, sometimes not so easy. Try hard to come from a place of love, including love for yourself, and know yourself well enough to not kid yourself.
You can be really hurt by someone and yet, not a victim. You are a survivor no matter what someone else (w) does. Do not let anyone ruin your life or make your choices for you. You will be happy again.
But yes, LD, we all know of your pain. We have all felt it. The fears...oh they are bad ones. The pains are deep and so are the wounds....we have been there. We are with you and you are not alone.
((( j ))
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
