Kat: It saddened me to find that his actions still hurt. No I don't want him back. I just want the pain to stop. Perhaps I am more sensitive in this last month of torture that I have in front of me.
I don't know if it ever stops, deep down inside there will always be that hurt, we bury it, cover it up, try to ignor it, but how can anyone ever get over this crap.
People say on other post, that they are moving on; wish their WAS well and hope they are happy and find what they are looking for, but I believe that if they would pull out some old family photos of thelselves with their ex, the pain or sadness of what happened would still be there. I think its like death, when I remember my father, who passed away 21 years ago, I still get sad/melancholy/blue and think of how things may have been if he was still with us.
Hope 2009 is a better year for all of us, it can't be as bad as my 2008
M45 W41 M10.75 years D9, D7, D7, S6 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me New Abbreviation = WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 W files for D 07/18/08
