Thrown for a Loop

[Indigo]

Thanks kml for your insight. So I wonder, if I should even keep some hope. I wondered about an affair, but I don't see any evidence.(yet) I do believe he is depressed, and he does have a problem with substance abuse (which he denies is even a problem). I just don't know what to do - throw in the towel, or keep hoping... There is more to this story - I actually filed for divorce last year, but we reconciled (with some conditions I set down due to substance abuse and other things). I thought we were on our way go a good place, and started relaxing. I don't think we did the work, but I'd given him so many chances over the years, and I'm hurt and totally knocked out by the fact that he didn't talk to me if he was so unhappy. When I talk to him (and I did Sunday), he says he's not happy to live apart from me and possibly for the rest of our lives. He still loves me. But he thinks we should divorce. I don't get his reasoning. I've already taken steps to protect myself financially. And I'm trying to do the last resort techniques. But this is the hardest thing I've had to go thru in my life. So, again, any help would really be appreciate.