I thought as 2008 came to an end I'd drop by and fill you in on the past 3 months of my life.
September 29 is a day I wish we could relive. If only we could go back in time and change the course of that day. Of course I cannot take back a day and relive it like Bill Murrey did in Groundhog Day no matter how much I'd like to.
As you know and I won't rehash I then found out that H had left me for OW and now we know there was another OW but no one knows who she is/was so we cannot investigate that angle. We have since concluded that H was killed because of this 2nd woman (we believe her H paid for a hit but have no other proof than a psychic telling me what happened) I was very angry with him and I learned that this anger wasn't going to help me or D so I let it go and have forgiven him 100 times.
Fast forward to early November and I allowed a man whom I had known since about August to come into our lives. He never knew H but knows what happened. He has been so good to me and has shown me that he loves and values me in ways that I had forgotten.
As a result of DBing I have become a better person and I have grown so much over the past 10 months. I feel that this new relationship will be stronger because of all that I have learned from everyone of you. You have all been so kind and honest with me and I am indebted to each of you for everything.
With love, Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
