KenF, Nice to hear from you, my friend...though I wish you were doing better. I can understand the pain and darkness you're feeling - and just hope that you continue to find a way to stay strong and do everything you can for yourself as a way of being their for your daughter. Thank you also for your words of encouragement - as you know, they're so often need when going through this sort of mess...
...well, a moment ago I got an email from my W - she had stopped by my house to check on my cat while I'm out of town - and she took it as an opportunity to look around the house and find stuff to get angry about...nothing new there. She found a photo from my baby boy's daycare and a turkey hand he had made for Thanksgiving - both of these only recently arrived in his cubby, and I took them home and put them on the fridge with the expectation of giving the picture to her - as well as the hand - since I already had a turkey drawing he made for Thanksgiving...Well, as she was in the house, she saw these items in the kitchen - and send me an angry email about how I kept these things from - and how she took them with her.
I also realized that she must have seen the stockings on the chimney - including hers - and wonder if she snooped around the rest of the house...there's a picture of her and my baby boy together next to my son's bed, and there were some Christmas cards from friends on the fridge - including a couple that said something along the lines of "here's to new beginnings." Funny...I didn't even think about these things much before I left - since it has just become the home for me and my kids - perhaps I should have been more cautious about what was out for her to see...no...this is my home...it is as it is...and there wasn't anything I needed to hide.
Part of me thinks she just needed to find something to be angry about again...so she did...as she always does...and that's fine...I won't let her anger influence me anymore, so I'll just let it be hers. I emailed her back saying that I understood where she's coming from - and that I didn't have any problem with her taking the photo and the Turkey card...I just asked her to be more considerate about asking me before taking things from my home in the future.
One thing I noticed over the last few months, is that she seems to think her anger justifies anything and everything she does - and that if I don't agree with her when she's angry that I'm somehow disrespectful...it's kind of her way of trying to control things...and I'm just not interested in that game anymore. She can be as angry as she wants to be - that's not part of my life anymore...thank goodness.
