I think it all comes down to optimism. Right now I am still optimistic that my W and I can work it out, and that with time and work things will be good (maybe even great) again.
There is also the flip side - fear. The thought of being separated from my sons and having to permanently deal with and financially support someone who I used to love but come to hate is more than I can bear to think about right now.
My wife had an affair a number of years ago, which she told me about last year. I forgave her for that one, but am having difficulty with her current one - she says it is only friends - so at least an EA, if not more.
Me 42, W 39, S8, S6, S2 M 11y, A & ILYBNILWY 11/08 Walking away from a bad situation.