What I want right now T'Gone is of little consequence. Everyone who knows me knows what I want. But I am doubting it will ever come to fruition. The dark images I was seeing over the past 3-4 days have been intense to say the least. the images of them are just to intense. I thought I was on the road to forgiveness, I agree with FH, if these posts are true, then I am not even in the same playing field as forgiveness. And now dreaming of losing my firends, my best friends!!!! that is intensely painful, but my dreams are my dreams. I don't want this to continue, but she shows no signs of letting up and it seems her feelings for the OM are increasing by the way she is trying to bring him more into her life and her families. I think that is enough of a sign in itself. I do doubt she is going through anything , she has just become this person, one I don't like and don't want in my life at any level. Sucks, it really sucks, maybe someday, like she told her firneds, two years from now, she will be back with me. Damn her for stting that time line on my emotions. If that is her attitude and she feels she can just waltz back in, she can go to Hell!!!
