I had a freak out last night. Poor S16 got the brunt of it.
S16 and his friends are fixing up the garage to put a pool table in for a hang out room. Well, S16 constructed a "bar" and attached it to the wall. The only wall I'd asked him not to do anything to.
Well, S16 did not accept my reason that I didn't want it on that wall since it was blocking the door to the outside.
We had words. He pushed the barstool so hard it put a big dent into my kitchen cabinets. I'd told S16 just great, I'm trying to keep the house in good condition so we can sell it since his dad walked out on me. S16 said that I need to get over it since it's been a year. I told him just because he and his brother like OW and I've had 20 yrs invested with their father doesn't mean I can get over it. In the heat of the argument I told S16 about H taking OW and her kids on vacations while he was still living with us.
I know I know it just came out. I'm so tired of people accepting her and the sitch while I'm dealing with it all by myself.
Anyway, S16 said well it was his money he could do what he wanted. I said WHAT!? He said well, you just said that you can't afford this house so it was his money that paid for it all so it was his money to do what he wanted. WTF!! I work too. Just because I don't make 1/2 of what H does and his salary paid for most of our things does that mean it's OK for him to cheat on me? Where does he get this idea?
So, I hung up on my best friend (her and her H are now hanging out with H and OW every other weekend at their camp) and left the house for about 3 hours last night. I went to another friends house and cried for 3 whole hours.
I was really doing better until last night. I'd even gone out Saturday night with a friend to a couple of clubs. I feel like I'm right back to where I started at.
