I don't recognize her anymore

[faithisbelieving]

Agreed WCW and frank. Thanks Kerry....working towards being in a better place next holiday season.

Observations and simply writing:

Last night, as I was pulling the blankies up on the nice and comfortable mattress in the MBR:

W: FIB, I think it's time we come up with a schedule for sleeping on the bed.

Me: No problem...whatever you want.

W: Why don't we rotate by the week.

W obviously saw that I was 'retaking' the MBR. I mean really...why did I move downstairs in the first place? It was to give her space and privacy in the hopes that she would come back. There is no need for me now to get a bad back by sleeping on the couch everynight.

Yesterday, I came home midday to grab some lunch. I went into the bathroom to find two pair of panties rolled around a pair of socks on the countertop. One pair was red with snowflakes, hearts, lace, reindeer...the other standard issue VS.

OK...do I need to see this? Was it left there intentionally? Subconsciously? WTF.

THIS....THIS..is what now sucks about being under the same roof. I really don't need to see this if you know what I mean.

This is the part of D here in NY that really sucks. I am now closing in on 3 years post bomb and this is the part that really keeps one from making the 'final' detachment. Living with indifference alternating with disdain. Lots of fun.

In many ways, I 'admire' my W for, at least in my eyes, being able to completely move on and not give a rat's a$$ about me anymore. G-d bless her. Despite this, I still find it hard to 'hate her'.

Many of her behaviors have either returned or are still here:
-gnawing on her fingers
-tight jeans all the time
-wears black stretchies to sleep so we can all see her behind and camel toe in the morning
-I believe she is back with the personal trainer
-tons of new clothes showing up
-whitening her teeth
-watching those TV shows, VH1, etc
-People Mag, cellulite mag, etc.

FIB