LonelyD,

I'm sorry but I woke up and couldn't stop thinking about you and your sitch. I'm trying not to get too upset...but, much of what you wrote is so wrong....and out of character for you. Don't you see it? Is this God? Clearly not!

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her mind is set, of that I have no doubt.
...if you can read minds, we could make some serious money in the stock market! What happened to believing "none of what they say and half of what they do"?

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My hope is fading that the two of us will ever be "us" again. That is why I must let go completely, forever.
I thought your hope was in Christ....not your W. If what your W does drives your hope, you're in for a long ride.

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everyone has someone, I have no one.
What about the millions who have endured separation, marital discord, and D in this country alone? What about the thousands of DBers? Do they all "have someone"? What about your children? What about your in-laws? Does their love not matter? And what about THE ONE? His love is supposed to be sufficient! His love IS sufficient!

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I do not deserve this, she will deserve her ends,
Did you ever hear the term "life ain't fair"? Well, sometimes it isn't! I've heard it said "character is what you do when nobody is looking". Dig deep, Brother....you have the character! Lean on God to get you through this pit!

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life will dictate that consequence to her. She can "what if" her life straight to hell.
Since when did you become her judge, jury, executioner? Re-read your posts from yesterday....do they sound like they came from a professed follower of Christ?

Here is the most prominent direction we get from God regarding our roles as husbands:
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Ephesians 5:25-30 Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless. In this same way, husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. After all, no one ever hated his own body, but he feeds and cares for it, just as Christ does the church - for we are members of his body.

....and finally you leave us with this crappy image of the garbage you let get into your head:
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I will no longer what if, there are no more kisses, no more images, nothing of her. all that remains are memories, and the ones in my head are not pleasant.

So you say you are asking God what to do next? Ask Him how to rectify this word from His book with your thoughts and actions today....please?
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Galatians 5:16-25 So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law.
The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.

Dear, Lord...my prayer tonight is that YOU show up in a big way to bring LonelyD out of the grips of the enemy. Show him the way YOU would have him think, act, and live according to YOUR will! Amen


Praising God Daily, Remaining "FaithfulH"
Me: 62
W: 62
D:33 S:30 & 31
Married: 40 Years
BD: Sep 2006
Piecing: May 2007
2nd BD: May 2014
Working On It: Today