hey Donna, I totally understand how you feel, I was doing much better when stbx didnt have anyone, and now that he's setting up to have a new ..ugh,..family with that woman ands her kids/our kids it is extra hard to just move on and not think day and night of what was/could've been/is. We have to force our train of thoughts to move on, rearranging the past isnt' helping us hon, there are way to many variables for us to pin point where things went wrong or what we could've done. Bottom line is, the men didn't stay for better or worse like we all promised, the run away the chicken sh*t way and hid the ow in a selfish way to quench their thirst, real men don't run away and hide the way they did.
Glad to hear you had a better day)))))
I'm tryign hard to not think of them all the time, the thougths are instrusive but I'm forcing myself to say "who cares" or "so what" when those thoughts come. It will take time, but we'll find peace hon, believe it, this is just another Everest to climb, we'll reach it one step at a time.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
