Hey NW, You've been doing great - and dealing with so much with such grace...I think about you often and how you are moving forward and doing your best to stay positive.
I like the image of a staircase spiraling upward...my own inclination was to think of it as spiraling downwards..but up is so much more hopeful - and accurate.
I' doing my best to stay in the present - though at times the reality of what awaits me over the next few months - the many changes - just has me looking forward in ways that feel necessary at times...just to prepare. I know I will be able to handle it - for whatever reason, I've been raised with upheaval - and so I am almost hard-wired for this sort of thing - it's just that I've never felt such a loss with the upheaval before...that's the new factor in all of this form me...though as I wrote that - I also heard myself saying, wait a minute, yes there is loss...but it this had never happened, would you be looking forward to getting back into teaching in a year or two? Probably not...I suppose it's kind of like when you implode an old building (not an historic one) to build a new one...sometimes you just have to do it to leave the space to rebuild...
The mourning will pass...I feel better now than I did just a couple hours ago...and I think it's just because I sat down after a while and started doing the work I had to do...any right now I'm taking a quick break...while my S11 sits next to me and does some stuff on his computer...he likes tossing together comical power-point presentations...he's just so unreal to me sometimes. We've both managed to stay on CA time during out trip to Ohio - so it means we've got a few more hours of awake time ahead of us...even though it is already 9.30pm here...it's only 6.30pm for our bodies...
Stay in the present...Carpe Diem...I forget how to say seize the day in Chinese...is it ba wo ji yu? Can't remember...
