Hi volleydog, I don't know your sitch too well - but just want to say we all feel that way. So you are not alone in those thoughts. I'm just in baby years in M compared to your M. It must be a very difficult decision.
I think the holidays effect everyone.
Me39, XH45 Kids 3 dogs, 2 cats Divorced 6/4/09 Tricky thing is not how you live, but how you live with yourself. (POTC)