I hear ya and thanks for helping me keep it square.
I have decided to get back to DBing, albeit with a lot more strength, a lot greater sense of self and a peace that I can and am taking what ever cards are dealt with pleasure and happiness. There are so many very little signals that tell me she's not done with us, that we aren't done. So, I feel like I owe it to myself, to her, to our kids, family and friends not to turn my back on it all just yet.
The words to the song "White Flag" kind of caught me the other day when I finally listened to them while it played on the radio. They say a lot about how I feel. Don't exactly identify with the mess and destruction part but I understand how some people can feel that way. For me it's about always having something positive in my heart and soul, Love. I'll always have it in some form or fashion for her.
Oh a bit of news, a woman I know from a divorce support group had great news, after 5 years of separation she and her husband are getting back together. They've been back 3 weeks now and loving it. Evidently lots of work to do but two people very willing to give it everything they've got.
"White Flag" by Dido
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you, I'll tell you that. But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder Or return to where we were
Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again And I caused nothin' but trouble I understand if you can't talk to me again And if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes sense
But I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet Which I'm sure we will All that was then Will be there still I'll let it pass And hold my tongue And you will think That I've moved on....
I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
