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What would normal look like to you Mike? Is it a real expectation or an idealized version of normal?


wow...let me see this could get exciting in a hurry..I can see my brother from the west loading his guns now and counting the ammo..

normal..I feel I'm normal but looking at the world around me makes me doubt how normal I am due to the way the world operates..I always "try" to do the right thing. I say "try" because there are times when that can't be followed. I feel most of the time you can do what is right but you must be willing to take any hits for that...Do unto others as you would have them do unto you is normal IMO.. Putting into something what you expect out of it is normal IMO..the golden rule and all that..having the nuts to stand up in the face of adversity and fight your way against the status quo is normal...knowing when to fight and when to cut your losses is Normal IMO...giving your word and standing behind that word is Normal..no matter what.

my problem...I think..is very little of this exist in the world anymore..and what little that does is hard to find..and it frustates my asssss..makes me question me and who i am..makes me want to just "give in" go with the flow..just say "f**k it"..it makes me wonder if my values, morals and what was instilled in me as a kid and through my life is actually normal or really abnormal...

just go all out status quo and screw everyone...

I know my attitude sucks right now..

I don't know if all that is a real expectation or an idealized version..I know I was raised a certain way and have pretty high moral standards..of course I've bended those standards on occasion..I'm not perfect by any means and don't really believe human perfection exist.

it's all self doubt bullchitt..I mean this is not the first time I've been through this chitt in the last few months..Ian's warped my asss more times then anybody over this bullchitt but for some reason I've got this thing inside me that makes me constantly revisit this crap...over and over and over and over..

so get some of that...god that's so pathetic..I just re-read this post and it sucks..It's all over the friggin place..