there is no other side of the rainbow. It is a fallacy.
Not much sleep last night and what i had was disjointed and restless.
This post will suck I'm sure. PMA has run down my leg. The last few days have been great and sucked at the same time. Drama continues to swirl around me unless I stay locked up in my house.
I dare myself to move forward like yesterday never happened.
I do not know if normal exist. it would be quite easy to revert back to what I was before I came here. Angry, pissed, feeling like I am owed something. The nice guy finishes last syndrome.
I continue to wonder if how I see the world act is "Normal" and how we are here on this site as "abnormal". It seems trying to do the right thing may sometimes not be the "right thing to do".
Waiting patiently and wondering gets you no where at times.
This is not holiday doldrums..this is life and life sucks sometimes..
so the question now..do I lay in this muck or do I get up? Do I get all batchitt crazy so I can play the game with all the other loonies? at least the playing field will then be even..hell I know batchitt so well I may even be able to slightly tilt the field in my favor.
The holidays went ok...and really things were going quite well until early Sunday morning..then things sort of slightly fell apart.
Walked 9 holes with a buddy yesterday..then had lunch with golf coursebeergirl..then home to watch a movie..
