that would be a no..and didn't we make a beer bet on when our D's would be final?? I'm afraid Kim received some phone calls yesterday and the text message that could have been forwarded to her would not have been in my best interest..
by the way you'll be happy to know the latest round of antibiotics has taken hold quite nicely and I'm feeling better..
hey Mike...you never really got into the reason for your "outburst". I understand the old boyfriend but how does that translate ti they are all nuts?
they all seem to have some drama attached to them which drags along behind them like it is attached to some rope..I get frustrated having to deal with the bullchitt of what should have been dealt with long ago. I know it's harder for them to let go of things in their past or it seems to be that way to me..
I just get frustrated John..that's all..I would like some calm/normal but may only find that if I'm willing to just lock myself in my house in front of my TV..
There are times where I don't think normal exist anymore.
Sorry to hear you're feeling poorly... I'll share my 'bust a cold/bronchitis/asthma' technique anytime.
Normal is on the other side of the rainbow, my friend. Being involved or uninvolved in 'drama' is a choice. But sometimes the trainwreck is too hard to look away from.
there is no other side of the rainbow. It is a fallacy.
Not much sleep last night and what i had was disjointed and restless.
This post will suck I'm sure. PMA has run down my leg. The last few days have been great and sucked at the same time. Drama continues to swirl around me unless I stay locked up in my house.
I dare myself to move forward like yesterday never happened.
I do not know if normal exist. it would be quite easy to revert back to what I was before I came here. Angry, pissed, feeling like I am owed something. The nice guy finishes last syndrome.
I continue to wonder if how I see the world act is "Normal" and how we are here on this site as "abnormal". It seems trying to do the right thing may sometimes not be the "right thing to do".
Waiting patiently and wondering gets you no where at times.
This is not holiday doldrums..this is life and life sucks sometimes..
so the question now..do I lay in this muck or do I get up? Do I get all batchitt crazy so I can play the game with all the other loonies? at least the playing field will then be even..hell I know batchitt so well I may even be able to slightly tilt the field in my favor.
The holidays went ok...and really things were going quite well until early Sunday morning..then things sort of slightly fell apart.
Walked 9 holes with a buddy yesterday..then had lunch with golf coursebeergirl..then home to watch a movie..
I feel like I'm missing some parts of the story, even after reading your whole thread, hon, so forgive me if I'm off the mark.
Drama....hmmm. I think at our age, we are going to have it, whether we want it there or not. But the decision we have, is how we look at and respond to it.
What happened on Sunday? Is hairstylist still trying to sort out old feelings for xbf? Cause, she very well might still have some. We learn that through DB stuff, too. But feelings are stupid and take a long time to catch up with our heads. So, look at her actions, too. Look at her words, and her decisions. She might just be waiting for her heart to catch up. And I think that once you love someone, really and truly, that doesn't even just dry up completely and fly away (although denial helps those who wish it would). Once you've given a piece of your heart away, that's it, its gone, belongs to the other. But the amazing thing is, that your heart grows again - there is always room.
Don't know if I'm making any sense with this...
But I do agree with you, that it is a cycle. You wouldn't know the days when you had high PMA if it weren't for the days you didn't. I lived my marriage that way, I think - didn't realize how content and happy I was until that was gone. So its ok to have to downturn; keeps things in perspective.
I've had one, myself...now the test is to see if we can get ourselves back out of it.
So to quote one of my favorite lines from Disney's the kid...
Wahhhhhh....somebody call a wahhhmbulance........
That post was just sad Mikey.......
Read it to yourself again. It is full of pessimism. Your may be right buddy, there may not be normal out there. Problem is that your vision of normal may be skewed. Here's some harsh reality for you, most women may look at you and be willing to turn you away simply because you have been married twice and that to them may not be normal. Now reality is any woman would be damn lucky to have you in their life but due to their perception of normal you just don't qualify....
So my point, maybe you need to change your views on what is normal. Maybe you need to look for someone who is only slightly crazy instead of not crazy at all. If good people required perfection then you and I would have some damn tired right forearms my friend
Your letting the holiday season blues bring you down brother... MHS38 is not abnormal, her ex is. Pick your sorry hide back up and stop sitting around on the woe is me potty... I don't handle it well
Come on over to Memphis for New Years and I will take you down to Beale street and we can search for the perfect woman for you together.....
I know it's frickin sad Ian..believe me I'm well aware of what that post is..If I had another place to take that post and attempt to let that chitt go then i would have gladly taken it and placed it there.
I actaully typed the SOB, lost it, typed it again, read it and it sucked every time.
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Problem is that your vision of normal may be skewed
problem is..I may really not know what normal is and am stuggling knowing what it is..I know what my moral convictions, upbringing and beliefs make me think that normal is...but looking around me I see very little if any of that..
it's not about the holiday Ian..not at all..beleive me when I say that..if it was about the holiday you should dame sure know that I would say that..
you know how I am and you know how I post..
and I figured you'd come and you'd bring hell with you..and you know me..I can take it and welcome it and appreciate it and thank you for it..
If memphis was closer I'd be there..
it is what it is... every bit of it..
and Donna..not all of it is here..It's a scattered mess across Facebook...and here..it a mixture of quotes and ramblings and chitt...it's parts and pieces and chitt..
and Ian's right it's sad..
like I said earlier..it's hard maintaining incredible
{{Mike}} Just remember that you ARE incredible, any of us having to go thru what we are going thru, and what YOU have gone thru, to still HAVE our sanity, to still WANT to try to be incredible and trying to be "normal"..that says so much about your character that YOU know you wouldn't be happy with yourself if you stayed in the muck and acted like everyone else..YOU are too good for that!
Nothing easy to do or get is worth much is it?
Tawnya
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Normal? Not sure that I know what normal is. I think I view normal as not completely over the edge of sanity, able to cope, able to compromise and put the chitt behind you. That seems normal to me. There is no person of our age out there that doesn't come with baggage. We have all been hurt, damaged in some way (some more so than others), and have used coping mechanisms to get through it. Some do that better than others and others just are good at hiding their baggage until you are sucked in too far to back out easily and then they hit you with it!
You know you're incredible! You know you offer a lot to the world Mike! Don't you dare shut yourself up like some hermit just to stay away from the batchitt! You are way to good to hide!
Plans for New Year's yet? Get some if you don't!
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