Thanks for your message. I too think that time away from our routine and home will help us to actually have some fun. Plus, we will be around others, and I think this will be really healthy for us.
Yes your turnaround was one of those rare things that I think we all long for, but rarely happen, i.e. the overnight change of heart. I think it's amazing, but I was definitely not expecting my sitch to be the same. I am thrilled to be living with my H, so even though this brings along with it the need to constantly be subjected to fluctuating emotions, I feel that it also gives me constant opportunities to demonstrate my 180s. Slow and steady in the case of my own M I think is the only way this has a chance to work. I am still delighted by each small thing that H does that shows his love. Maybe he won't be saying ILY on a regular basis for ages to come, but he says thank you, laughs at the things that I say, and has involved me in many parts of his life again that had been off limits. Sometimes he even asks me what is wrong, and he brought me a gift from his business trip, something he hadn't done in a very, very long time.
Sometimes I get frustrated, and sometimes I lose sleep over things. I can't say that I am completely calm and at peace with everything, but I am a LOT happier than I was before, and have a lot more hope than I had before. I hope that it won't be too long before H and I can have a positive conversation about this, but I am going to see what happens on this upcoming trip before I even consider being the one to start this.
I am definitely going to keep up the hard work :).
ITH
Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
