hang in there, keep on the right path, you need to prove to her with actions not words that this time you do intend to stay away from ow, that you want to be a good H, give her some time, she is obviously terribly hurt and can't believe what you say. It's a long road, keep at it.

Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2

30something
2kids
survivor of S, MLC, A, D
I have peace in my heart, at last.