AmyC, you and sandi had told me it would get worse before it gets better. apparently on xmas eve at my D28 house she mentioned that she wanted the OM and my D to get together and learn to get along. My D went off big time which is what I think prompted FIL to go off on my W. I agree with you 100% with not doign anything for her. Just got off the phone with my D and she agreed. I don't like to talk to my kids about this stuff and haven't for quite some time. She felt I needed to know what her mother was saying.
She will be told tomorrow that I either get my insurance money or the car comes off the policy end of story. I am calling my lawyer on Friday to talk about everything you mentioned, once again we are very much on the same page. I prayed I would hear from you. No offense to everyone else. I have not had anything to do with her since thanksgiving and then, bam, here we go again. Yes everytime I see her, I expect nothing, consciously, but at some level I want her to look at me and say I can't believe I left him. she thru the whole I haven't been happy for years speech at my daughter on Xmas Eve. I read all the MLC speeches, the ILYBIANILWY, I haven't been happy for years, we have drifted apart, it is all crap. Yes it is getting harder because she is reaching to my kids with this POS right now...They have denied her....I wish she would just get her own insurance and then my dealings with her wouldbe beyond less...I prayed for more strength now, more than ever before. My older D told me tonight that she believes her mother would come back, but she has to hit rock bottom and she isn't even in that book yet. I am not reading anything into anythng now and this denial is my torment. I am detached and detaching, I do not want signs from her. I know I asked God to give me one, now I have seen several including this one from my D. Apparently it goes with the whole watch what you ask for you might get it. I will keep asking for strength, I am making a list of do things for myself. I am going to visit some people this weekend, little day trips. My projects will be done and I will be happy to get out of the house. I feel safe here though, is that wrong? I am secure here, nothing bothers me here, this is mine, my world....
I gave her the $5 in the gas can and another $10 so she could make it to her Dad's. Her mother sent her money for Xmas, that I am quite sure is gone. I have no intention of giving her anything. It's funny the things you posted here to me were exactly what me and my older D have just said. She asked why we haven't talked about this and I told her I have these friends that counsel me, that give me real world advice and support. I need you kids to not be involved. It is better for you. I did feel a little better after talking to her and reading your post.
I believe if this were truly over, then God would have sent me in a different direction, He would not lead me down a path to intentionally hurt me. But you and Sandi were right, it is getting worse, my emotions are strained, I am stressed to the max and I go to bed praying I wake up and don't hate her guts and kick her as to the curb. Forgiveness in all this is hard enough without having her recent activities cast into the pot.
Thanks for taking the time with me, all of you. I feel I will need real support this week and next, don't know why, but I feel a real test coming on.
As for our taxes, me , filing single, head of household, her taxes are her problem and business not mine. Lawyer told me, I am paying the bills she walked, she is not entitiled to any of the rebate I get, plus the bulk of the return is against my salary which is about 4x's her's. thanks again, love you all...
