Hi ... the 'missing' begins again. It has been four days since he left his 'merry christmas' message. The need to have him call me is an ache in my stomach again. All of my questions and doubts turn me upside down. I forget for an awhile, but when it is quiet, I turn around and realize that we don't go home to each other anymore.
A co-worker told me that she met him when he came into the store the other day. She asked me if he was ok to me again, and she asked me if I thought I was better off now. I told her, 'no'. 1.) I am glad that he is talking to me now. 2.) I'd rather be married to him. I enjoyed being married to him.
Am I better off? I don't think I'm better off. I always try to be better, no matter what. What a strange question?
