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[Luci]

Had sort of a down day today.

I don't think I'm trusting him to speak up when something is not right.

When he decided to give our R another shot, I told him that I'd like to place one condition on it - that we go forward with a positive mindset and attitude. He readily agreed, so long as I was willing to work on the issues he'd just recently made me aware of (my whole deal was that I wasn't aware of some things and couldn't see giving up our R if I hadn't been given a chance to meet his needs!).

We both agreed and were excited to give "us" a chance.

That night, he quickly went into acting like nothing had ever been wrong, which made me sort of uneasy. I was willing to consider it "acting as if", but suggested to him to pace himself, because I didn't want to see him wear himself down by being TOO positive all the time.

Now that some time's gone by...I don't know. I'm concerned that it's not possible for anyone to become that "okay" in such a short amount of time, and that maybe he's just not speaking up again.

Maybe because that talk was the only R talk we've had since that night and I'm the kind of person that needs "check-ins"?

Yes, these are my own issues that I need to work through, but I don't know if I'm getting uncomfortable for no reason or what.

I need to take each day as it comes and reassure and validate him. Not think about the future and create scenarios in my head that may or may not exist.