Ha Michelle...whats that from "make it so!?". Thanks girls for your hugs and wishes. Mishka..Marmite is lush!! Thanks Purr too for checking in with me, yes, I do believe he cares deeply for me.
So I met all my parents friends again this year.. the ladies took me aside seperately and each said things like, how they feel for me, but how elfin I looked, how beautiful, how young, how funny and lovely I was etc, nearly made me cry !! They know the whole sitch. I said, yes, maybe he will regret it one day hey, they said, who cares if he will or wont! You are a great catch...They all said to my parents I looked 27! So I felt pretty special alright, very touching.
I am still in my hometown, I dont know if he is too. I'm going out for drinks tommorow with his oldest BMF wife for a 'chat' she said. This may be innocuous, or she may have met Helen and have something to say about it! Shes been busy though, so I dont know if she's met her, or even wants to. Shes a wise, lovely person and is very loyal to me. It will be great to see her, so I may have some ex-related gossip! I have to admit, I like to hear bits, from her, and Cher... but thats just me!
So it seems, I loved him with all my heart, but he left me for a woman he met at work! She is younger and it would seem, not 'as nice' as me, but the reasons he left me for her are probably complex. I have had no thoughts to contact him. I would though, warmly accept contact from him if he contacts me.
I was so touched and chuffed to get that present from him, neverlone a thoughtful one and a long phonecall too. But NC at all over the Christmas period has about finished me off! Its like, ok, I get it now, you dont want me. You have made your choice, made it clear to me and gone public with it.
I do wish I had asked him before August, when we were in so much contact, if he wanted to try again and if not, why not. Now, its too late for those conversations. I wonder if he had a good holiday too !??
