Church today was very interesting. The topic was 'how will you spend 2009?'. The real question being 'Will it be doing what God wants for you to be doing, or what you want?'
I have a lot of sins to atone for, and a lot of damaged relationships to heal. So does my W but she doesn't see it.
At church I ran into the one friend of W who is a Christian and does not agree with W's choices. Her friend, 'D', asked me how things were going and I said it was the same as last time I talked to her in September except that the holidays put a lot of stress on everyone. Told her the story of the 'house decorating fights' and she agreed that W needs to see the reality of her choices.
'D' said that she didn't like W being out on her own at all. I asked her why and she said "She has no idea how hard it is to be without the support of your husband". I said "but she has her OM and no other financial responsibilities" and she said "Maybe, but OM is not her husband".
She said she prays for us and not to lose hope. You just don't know what's supposed to happen.
Anyway, I do know that I'm supposed to be 'Frank' and do the work I was put on this earth to do. And that means giving W to God and asking Him for help with my family.
