Sandi's in Piecing and it's getting better

[sandi2]

Just wanted to give a short update based on my early New Year's Resolution.....LOL.

Well, first of all, I was able to make Christmas Day over to my in-laws for the first time in two years and the last time, three years ago, I had to leave immediately after lunch. But, I had a great time visiting with everyone. Unfortuantely, my H was the one that was not feeling well this year and had to cut the visit short.

Then, last night we went out to eat with his family and they usually do that about once a year when the out of town relatives come in......I have not been in years. But, I got to go last night!! I was so happy that I could do that, and I think b/c I had said that I was going to try a lot harder, made me put my best...er...better foot forward and do that. Then this morning I went to church for the first time in weeks! So, I am beginning to think that the stress at work must have a lot to do with my physical problems! Since I have done better being off work for the holidays. If only I could stop working......ohhhhhh how nice it would be.

I have been in what they refer to as a Fibromyalgia "flare" for so long until I was afraid that was as good as it was going to ever get again. So, having these past four days of being able to not hurt so much and having the energy to be able to join my H in visiting his family, has meant the world to me. I dread going back to work, so please pray that I can let the stress factors roll down my back and not build up in my body to hurt me physically. It is not so much the "work" that I do b/c I like my job, but it is the environment that causes the stress for me. But, we never know when God may just change that completely around any time. I have been in it for 11 years now. Strangly enough, I was diagnosed about 10 years ago. So, I still believe stress has something to do with it. My doctor thinks it is inherited, but I don't know. My parents didn't have it, I do know that, but maybe it started with me....!

As far as the "diet"......you all know how it is right after Christmas with all the stuff sitting around and people still wanting to go out to eat...like last night! I have not kept anything sitting around my house and when we went out to eat, I am careful as to what and how much I eat. I think I have lost a couple of pounds. But, of course, my scales and the doctor's are never together...lol. Anyway, as soon as we get through all these holidays and get back in "routine", I am go to the store to get some "diet" food (ugh) and get down to serious business. The weather has been so bad that I have not been able to do any walking, and that is about as active as I can get, but I plan to start doing some stretching and work up to some mild things. Can't do a lot, but I need to do what I can. I know I was doing it when I was trying to look good for OM, so I can do it now!! The motivation is what I need, so appreciate you all keeping tabs on me. Kind of makes me give an account of myself...and I need to do that.

Have not done much physical work around the house while I've been off for Christmas b/c I did not want to push my luck and over do with the aggrivated physical stress to my body. I've mainly been right here with all of you....LOL. But, I have learned that a lot of things can go undone around here. I do want to get back on my fly lady routine. That was one of the best things I ever did. But when I got really down with the Fibro, I stopped doing it. It is kind of like a diet......just getting started again is the biggest thing.

Well, just rambling, but I had told myself that I was going to do more journaling on my post this year. As far as my MR goes, things are pretty good. I have been more "touchy" and calling him "baby", etc. I thank him for the things he does for me around the house. At his family Christmas dinner, I made a point to tell how he helped me so much and that I couldn't make it without him. He just sat there and didn't say a word....but that's just his way. He probably was in shock that I said anything...LOL. He has been the one that has had the crud throughout the holidays and has had to push himself to make it. But anyway, we laugh and he at least listens when I try to talk now. That is the one change he did make! We have become much better friends now and that is a good beginning considering where we were and the fact I did not want to be here at all not too long ago. Seems like ages, but it really wasn't that long ago. I did not think I would ever have feelings for him again.....but they are returning. I had to get the "want to" fixed in my heart. It's a slow process.....for me. I'm so stubborn!

So, that is enough about me. Just wanted to give an update. I'll be dropping by to see all of you, if not today, probably tomorrow.

Love,
Sandi