I'm not it denial anymore. I contronted this morning and am hurting so bad right now, but also grateful that it is out in the open. He still says they are just friends, but now he knows more of how I feel about it. H says he is so confused and hurting, just can't believe in our M right now and doesn't know what to do. Read more about my sitch on the other board.
right now we are in a holding pattern, can't afford to really separate so will stay in the same house for a few months. This gives me a little time to show him that changes are for good and try to help him see the real me.
The truth is that I don't want to lose him, but I can live in my home without him and the kids will stay with me. On the other hand, he will struggle just to have a crappy apt with his income and no help. I can't imagine how that can be appealing, and he also said how much this would hurt the kids and the rest of the family. I think that is holding him back as well. I am praying that the DB principles can save him from self-destruction. I think that is what he would be doing if he left.
I told him that we would be friends and nothing else if that is what he wants. I said I won't be TM or sharing with him. He was really upset about that. I think he is trying to cake-eat and i won't be that way. I am living for myself and my kids now.
