I pray you are right. went to church today with my DIL and grandson. almost made it thru without crying. Held my grandson tight to me to get through it.
Feel asleep late. Kept seeing images of something typed. Two different items. One kept coming back to me. Couldn't read it. told Him I need this to end. told Him I miss her and I know what I have to do, give me more strength, help me believe more in what I want. He is telling me to go on, stay strong and do not forget your pains. If I do, then this is all for nothing. D17 spent the weekend with her and hung out. Friend of mine is playing about an hour away from here and about 15 minutes from OM. He isplaying at 4. she is dropping D17 off I am sure to run down there, she has no gas money and is riding on a spare... I hope she doesn't go, but I am sure she will, to see him. God is telling me not to put these thoughts in my head, they do pop up and I quickly push them down. this needs to end....
