You are anything but a fool. Please do not spend any energy thinking that way.
It is great that you are so intune with your feelings, feel them and sit with them. There is no rush. Like they all say here, time is your friend. I used to think that meant that given enough time, we'll get what we want. Now I think it means much more than that. Give yourself time to really understand your feelings.
I know what you mean about knowing there are people out there who care about what I am going through and are going through it at the same time. Lots of us here care about you and what you are going through.
