H, I'm very sorry to hear that people are supportive of your h. Apparently he's rewritten history so well that people are listening. I do want to point out that at some point during your journey, those same people will begin to see the light and will begin to reconnect w/you and provide you the support you will need. Right now, they are just floating along w/your h and trying to stay out of the middle of things. I do believe that many will do this, I know that the friends that we had did the exact same thing, but about two years down the road, they began to see the light and have rallied around me.
I also understand how you feel about romantic love. That is a love we searched for in our 20's-30's. Once we hit the mid 30-s our reality changes and then we begin to look for companionship versus romantic love. It would be nice just to have someone to talk to, do things with and who could share some common interests w/you.
I do hope that you have a pleasant Sunday. Please try not to allow those dismal feelings to come to the surface. I know you are feeling lonely and left out, but things will change w/time.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
