Hi, it is nearly 4 in the morning and I can't sleep! just had a strange dream and woke up. I know what you mean about not wanting to find romantic love -me too in a way. Just a special friend would be nice. I feel your pain and have no words that will help. Time will ease what you are feeling now but still it won't be easy. I guess you just keep getting up and going through the motions. It is not easy to cope with the betrayal and especially when others who you would expect to love and support you don't. Well best get back to bed got family arriving tomorrow. I forgot you had been married before so I am sorry for remembering that. You will get through this, people do care I think the bb is just quiet at the moment.
