OK, so do not go and see Marley and Me if you are expecting a cute kids movie.....It isn't.

I took Ross to see it today and by the end of the movie was in tears and wiping my eyes. I will not ruin it for anyone, but it was by far one of the saddest movies I have seen in a long time. Even Ross sniffled at the end of it and this is a kid who does not cry easy.

Parts of it were also disturbing because of the arguing between the husband and wife in the movie. Overall, not a good experience for me.


Not a lot out of Carrie this week. She left me a message xmas morning asking me to call back so she could "talk to the kids, or Ross anyway." Pretty pathetic.

It was bad enough that she had been gone since the previous Friday and not even called her son in a week. For those of you who do not know Carrie took the OM home to meet her parents. To be honest it was in the back of my mind the entire week and really bothered the hell out of me.

It may be very selfish of me, but that piece of shitt was at my other parents home, eating xmas eve dinner with my family, and sharing xmas day with my wife. Very disturbing stuff for me and truthfully, very hard to swallow this week.

Anyway, Christmas was good here. The kids and I started our own traditions and did things the way we wanted to rather than the usual ways that we have in the past. It was very nice having my kids here with me, but I still deep down had to hold the emotion a few times since it was my first christmas without Carrie in 17 years. I don't think I will ever completely understand why it is that I still feel anything for her...... She doesnt deserve my love......


Ian


M- 48
XW- mentally 17
KIDS- 3- S19, D23, D28
Married- 17 years
Divorce final- 10/16/09