Time for ME to change...scared as hell...

[theotherhalf]

Really really had a rough day yesterday and especially last night. I reached out to my sister and spent some time with her on the phone. Before I talked to her I had some defining moments of my own and then she gave me alot to think about. One conclusion I came to is "why am I "waiting" for him to make things all better. H can not do that. He has so much to fix for himself before he can ever be of any help to me. I have to do MY healing on my own. I have to find ways to get over and out of this mess on my own.

So I spent the last hours of the evening looking on the internet on craft sites. Trying to come up with a way to get back into my crafting then maybe DO something with it. For sooo many years, sooo many people have told me that I should sell what I do, that I should have my own web site, or store, or something. I have always laughed it off as a pipe dream. Maybe not anymore. It's up to me now...

Today I cleaned my house. Washed bedding and blankets. Hung up a shelf. Did my check book. Paid the bills that I could. Talked to H a minute when he came to hay cows. Tonight for the last hour or so I've been working in a book called "Self Matters, Creating Your Life From the Inside Out". Alot of steps forward. Now to keep it going...