The very feelings you discuss in this last post are the reason I suggested not to act too precipitously. Just live with the decision for a while.
There is a middle ground, too. You can decide to be done and move forward or on in all ways but legally. This will allow you to sit with the attendant emotions for a while. When I read that you are ready to let go one day and that you wonder if you are just rejecting someone who rejected you the next, I think inaction is the order of the day.
Just let yourself be for a while.
I had a horrible, horrible and particularly graphic dream that set my tailspin in motion yesterday and I am just emerging now. These dreams are so vivid and real. I know how you feel. Let the emotions triggered by that pass.
V.
And thank you for your consistent and thoughtful support through my last few days. Your words and ideas have given me a lot to think about and have helped me pick myself back up.
