I really hope someone is available right now. I'm in bad shape. I just finished IC and updated her on the convo with MIL, w/H's tm to me on Christmas saying he's moving back to dad's and didn't, and how he tm me this morning asking if he can take D to MIL's tomorrow...but never showed up to see her today.
IC believes now that H is NEVER coming back. She said I need to forget about him, move on and better my life for me since it appears we will be divorcing. I cried the whole entire time. I'm so confused! Last week at IC, she was telling me that H shows his anger to me because he loves me, is safe with me, etc and now she's saying it looks as though he's so far gone he's not going to return. She said that 2 years is long enough for him to break from this and if he hasn't yet, then he's not going to and I wouldn't want the man he is now anyway. She told me to detach myself from him for good.
I called H and asked if we could talk about it. He said there's nothing more for him to talk about and he's planning on filing D papers next week. I asked him why he decided that when the day before Christmas he told me he still has feelings for me and that's why he hasn't divorced me. He said it's because he's tired of being so angry and he hates everything and everyone in life right now and wants that to change. He said we've gotten no where the past 2 years and it's obvious to him that it won't work. I told him that he has alot of anger and I have alot of hurt, but I don't think we've tried with eachother yet....we haven't tried MC, dating, chatting, etc. We haven't tried rebuilding, but has shown eachother our hurt. He said he "will give me the opportunity to talk to him tomorrow and who knows what will happen then, but divorce papers are on his mind".
