Jeff, I don't think "dark" is the way to go right now. You are definitely in the running of a marathon and one you will need much patience and energy for.
The comments are typical. They don't want to get your hopes up about staying, coming home, etc. It's the game they play w/our hearts, minds and souls. What do you do? Ignore the comments and continue being the best you can be.
You've done well thus far....patience and more patience are what you need right now.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
