Running, I also get what you mean. I definitely don't want her with me out of guilt, but I also believe that if she sticks to our marriage out of submission to God He will show his ways and her heart would follow and our marriage would be more fulfilling than she could ever imagine. She was once very in love with me, and I really want that back, though. I feel like I came to the point of letting go last Saturday, but my heart still aches for her. It's just hard, as you all know. I willing to put in the time, but not if it's all for nothing. I don't want to waste my life loving someone who won't love me back. I know that I deserve to be loved. My desire is that my W is the one who loves me...but who knows if that will be her desire again.
