Much more was said by h yesterday. He said that he has not been good at communicating with me and that he is going to do better at that in the future to me and to the kids. I think this is huge.

The anger in h.

He also said he went back and read the e-mails I sent 3 yrs ago. Ok I was angry and said many things when I should of been silent. Probably all my past hurts came spilling out on paper. I can't change that. His thoughts how could I say these things if I truly loved him.

Also he said we could have dealt with our issues privately, but I had to go make them public and then my family sided with you Glam. This bothered him even more than I think what was said.

I did tell him I spoke to my ex. He was fine with that and that convo went well. He did say Glam I am not your ex, so don't expect an apology and a sorry from me like you received from your ex.

He said he did a lot of thinking and it always comes back to the same conclusion. He can't get past the anger and hurt of what I did. What he can't understand is that HE hurt me too and things were said and done out of anger and hurt. He is struggling with this big time.

I do agree he has some deep rooted issues. Not sure what can be done. We did talk some about h's anger in C. I said out loud what are we going to do to fix this. H immediately responded, it's MY issue to fix.


Me 50
H 42
S 22
S 9
D 7
M 12
T 17
H moved out 8/2006
H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks
H moved home 5/2011 for good

"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"