On Christmas Eve, I made a trip with my 2 children to see my family and 4 of my 7 siblings made it along with my mom and dad. Later that same evening, we made the trip to my children's other side of their family. That was fun also. At the end of the evening, I dropped my children and XW off at her place and went home a little after midnight.
I arrived back Christmas day at 9am and we started opening presents around 10am. Spent the entire day with XW and children. I left around 1130pm to get gas and discovered that I still had XW's car keys in my pocket. I took her keys back to her, knowing they were still awake and my children were insistent that I spend the night. I did, cleaning up my daughters throw up twice last night and sleeping on the couch.
I definitely walk this emotional tightrope with XW. She gets closer alot and they pulls WAAAAY back! It's all fine. I simply take solace in the fact that I am much closer to reconciling my M than I was 3 years ago. She still very confused about everything, and that is fine also.
I intend to continue improving myslelf and to keep on keepin' on.
Thanks for listening. Merry Christmas.
Tom
Letting Go Tom; JUST DO IT! previously hopeful_husband
my A: Fall 05 W found out: Feb 06; separated immediately W pursued D, final 7/11/07
