K, I really am trying but it is so hard. Most of the time I can fake a smile and pretend to be happy, but I'm honestly dying inside. She spent the past couple of nights in the house w/my daughter and I (on the sofa bed), and it's just so difficult. I was actually thinking of trying to initiate physical contact w/her in a take charge kind of way, but then I thought that could really back fire on me. I just don't know what to do. I also now think she may begin dating even though we're not even divorced, though functionally we are. Everything is just killing me inside. My life has become such a roller coaster--I have these moments of great strength and then I feel like crap all over again. She told me the other night that one thing that would make her consider our relationship again is if she felt that I could be truly happy without her. She said that she feels like she's my life and that I'm to dependent on her and that makes her feel suffocated. I don't really get that, because since she left I have continued on with my daily life, yes it is hard and yes I do feel very sad and yes I do cry about it, but isn't that normal? Am I just supposed to say oh well and move right on? I think I could do that if I didn't really love her, but since I do love her that is very difficult. I know this has to do with GALing, but I guess I just haven't figured that part out yet. By the way, I will read your thread tonight and hopefully I'll be inspired.
