Thanks Jay. sometimes I like to type it out anyway as a means of reminding myself of these things. My holiday with her wasn't without confusion, emotional pain and want. I rescued her twice in the space of 13 hours. She is financially slipping worse than ever. She complained about how tired she was yesterdqay, but not tired enough to miss going out to a party and then partying at her house. I paid cash for Xmas, and I don't have the money to go out. I have bills to pay, a house to keep clean and some projects to do to maintain my house. My partying, is my kids coming over for dinner on Sunday that I am cooking. I'm sure her party was meeting the OM at some friends house and then going back to her place or not, who knows. I try not to care. But when it gets mentioned that she is going out to a party and then karaoke at her friends house....Said it loud enough so that everyone knew she has this busy calendar. She did well Xmas shopping. Have no idea where she got the money. don't care. All I know is she is spending $25 for each time she is overdrawn. She has three so far. don't know how many came in today. she gets paid on thursday, holiday means she won't see her money until Friday. Her donut spare is good for sppeds up to 50 miles an hour and for a duration of less than 100 miles. I am not wishing her ill, just wondering why all of a sudden this is heaped upon her. he seems very happy to me when I saw her. Other than seeing me drink to much Xmas eve, she saw me not chasing her, hounding her, following her. She saw me happy, no act, just me. she also felt the connections I had with everyone. Her's weren't so real.
