Veronica, Your thoughts are always welcome - though I understand how sometimes we find ourselves in emotional spaces that make it hard to know what to say...
I have a feeling I will stick around...I just feel bad that I'm not here doing what people come to this site for...I'm not fighting to save my marriage...and I would hate to discourage anyone - since I do believe that divorce is a last resort - and marriage is worth fighting for. This is my second marriage - and my first one ended so easily - without any fights, without any effort from either of us to keep it - we both just knew we weren't right for one another - this marriage is/was different - and I wanted to fight for it - but these last couple months have made me see some things that I didn't realize before...
I went into DBing with the belief that I would either come out of this as a better person on my own, or as a better person with a better marriage. What I see now is that there will not be a better marriage - because I cannot be with the person my wife has accepted as herself. Perhaps she'll change in the future - and for her sake, I hope she does - since I want for her to be happy - and want what is best for her - I just know that I do not make her happy - and I am not best for her - nor is she best for me. This is a strange thing, love, it has a power to confuse and inspire unlike anything else in life.
