Wife have moved out with my son..........now what

[nw626]

Carlos and Veronica
Thanks for the kind words..
Trust me, I am nowhere near an inspiration.

Journal...
I had a great time with my S past several days. I took him out shopping for some toys. I love that boy. I really miss the daily activity with him. This is something I need to fight for.
The party was good. I had a good time but it was awkward. My W was there but she is just physically there. We were friendly to each other at the party, nothing more.
I spent the Christmas day at my W's place. My S opened all the presents and he was so excited. Seeing his smiles just means the world to me.
I am not sure this is normal.
The more time I spend with my W, the more distance that I feel.
I guess her behaviors just make my detachment easier. Of course, the OM is still in her life because she was texting on and off outside.
Honestly, I really don't see the same woman that I married to anymore. She was my W, but no now.
By the time I was ready to leave, I felt some of the sadness and anger are coming back. It was probably whole day with her and S just little too much to bare at this point. I guess it is the playing family part...
She did ask me to stay overnight but I declined because I wasn't sure I can hold back any longer. I have to remove myself to prevent any serious 'Talk'.
I say goodbye to my S and of course he didn't want me to leave.
I was pretty upset. When my W wished me Merry Christmas and thanks, I could not even say anything. I just nod my head and say goodbye.
After this, I really think the big D will come. If it does, I will be fine. I will be OK. I will still live the best of my life.
As far as the R with my W, I'll take all memories, laughter, tears and make them all my souvenirs. That's something that no one can ever take away from me.

Got to stay busy....

NW626