"Today I realized it has been over a year since I had people over for dinner/lunch etc. I used to love to do that... I love cooking."
As simple as it seems.. we loose sight of things that are important to us. Why did you think about this.. in the midst of all that was going on? There is still something "here" for you to learn. I have had that feeling for a while.. even though I don't believe it.
"He left a few hours ago to go to those friends that dont talk to me anymore."
Do you not want to see them? This is something that will need to be addressed. Not now.. but down the road.
"The situation is weird."
Welcome to piecing.
"I am all eager for something, he is in a nirvana state."
Right there... that is what I have been saying all along!
The goal is the same.. you both just have way different paths chosen. Let "example" it.
You have a job interview. The say they want to hire you. You are all excited. Gung Ho.. even. They call you the next day and say.. well we are rethinking the job. The pay is gonna be less.. but you will have to work harder. You still want the job.. but they can't tell you what will be expected.. or when it will happen.
This is what I "see". This is where you and H are. Human Resources has not "defined" the job yet.
"I started saying something and he said "stop nagging"."
DAM Speak.. "I hear you talking.. but it is not important to me."
Right here you need to listen. Why did he say that? What did you do to make him think you were "nagging"? He is not listening here.. I will assure you.
"So, I stopped. He gave me my present. A bracelet I dont like at all. He bought it at a shop around the corner. I smiled and said "I see you didnt much effort to it". He got upset and said it's the old usual stuff."
Right here is your cycle. Right here.. you just wrote it out.
The word to define in all that.. is "Effort". You are not doing enough! You let me down again! Why don't you understand!
Are you feeling me yet?
Plain and simple.. that was a nasty.. and hurtful comment. He felt it. I will assure you.. this is not who you want to be. Please.. debate this with me.
"I asked how he "feels". He said: it's nice, it's peaceful.(Yeah, dead people are peaceful too)."
He recovers fast. Oh.. he so wants to be with you. I can "see" him fighting for it. Yes.. he is doing it wrong.
So are you.
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
