Hey everyone..
I had a lovely day with my family, really special. My lovely millionaire cousin said I could stay anytime, for as long as I like, or even go live with him in London as his housemate!! He has a NICE house..the mortgage is £8k a month! Guessing he wouldnt charge me rent, lol! Hmm, maybe I will hey...

So a while ago, I shopped for a present for my ex, but it was hard, I finally setted on something, a book, but didnt buy it, as I wasnt expecting to hear from him. (I still dont know if I should get him something ?)

Anyway, so I opened his gift today...he had bought me...the exact same book I was going to buy him!! He had also slotted inside it 3 CDs...they were ones that he bought back when we were hanging out all the time May/June and he promised to copy them for me...but he didnt and hadnt mentioned it since.

So he remembered which albums I would like and was missing, from like 6 months or more ago and got me the book, which was a great choice for me also. I was pretty stunned. I dont know what it means, but it made me think, like John said.. this person really knows me. The unaminous opinion was.. this isnt guilt.

My family asked separately today what he had got me, when I showed them they each said "Hmm...he's really put some thought into that". Thats what I thought too.

Then I remembered, he had suddenly bought up this book in the car a month ago when chatting to me, I remember as he mentioned it out the blue then changed subjects...so he DIDNT just rush out and buy me a gift last week... he had thought about it and taken the trouble to 'fish' to see if I already had it.

Dont know what it means, but I was very touched. Didnt get sad, just felt grateful. BUT he didnt contact me today, which is a shame, but then its not surprising and I wasnt expecting him to.

Also touching.. his oldest BMF wife texted me today to say they send me love..and she wants to phone me tommorow, so thats nice, its like I'm still part of my old life, even if he is now with someone else !

Thinking of everyone out there.. battling on.. today wasnt bad though, it was nice even. But like Kalni said...maybe I just need to wake up and face reality, he IS with someone else, afterall.