Well, I went out and hit CVS, the only place that was open! lol Spent some time at my inlaws too...I feel alot better than I did. I thought I had forgiven stbx for all the old stuff and was working on the newer stuff. But I think what I did was just pushed it aside, like I have always done when he cheated. Just pushed it aside and moved on. And I think this is showing that. It's not so much I'm mad for each affair, or each thing. I think it's just everything in general, ya know. Everything has built up to this. I've pushed everything down and now I'm exploding, ya know. And that makes me even more mad. I'm mad at myself for letting myself get this far. I just need to keep my emotions in check. It's hard right now. I miss my kids. Usually, they cheer me up when I'm having a down moment. S3 was so sweet one day, he heard me and stbx arguing on the phone and he gave me the biggest hug and kiss and then painted me a picture. So sweet! Thanks chicki, I always feel better after reading your posts!
Me- 29 X - 30 M - 7.5 years Final April 2009 S - 2005 D - 2007
Don't make someone a priority who only makes you an option.
A wise fish once said...Just keep swimming...Just keep swimming!
