Hi guys, I hope you are all having a nice Christmas day... I had my family over for lunch today. I got tired but my pork in the oven came out delicious. Today I realised it has been over a year since I had people over for dinner/lunch etc. I used to love to do that... I love cooking. Anyway, H spent the evening yesterday with us and today too. He left a few hours ago to go to those friends that dont talk to me anymore. The situation is weird. I am all eager for something, he is in a nirvana state. I started saying something and he said "stop nagging". So, I stopped. He gave me my present. A bracelet I dont like at all. He bought it at a shop around the corner. I smiled and said "I see you didnt much effort to it". He got upset and said it's the old usual stuff. I get a present and I complain. He is probably right. What I meant was to subtle for him to "get". Whatever. He hugged and kissed me a couple of times.He liked his present. A shirt from a brand he likes recently that I had noticed. He dresses now more modern than he used to, so I bought him something that fits his new dressing style. I asked how he "feels". He said: it's nice, it's peaceful.(Yeah, dead people are peaceful too).
Anyway, no use repeating the same things all over. Christmas should be filled with love and happiness. I am greatful I have my kids, my family , my home, my friends. Everything else will be fine, eventually. I really need to calm down and face the facts. Love to all, K
