Its true time will make yr pain less and less. I have been @ this a little longer than you & this is my first Xmas w/out my girls. I was sad for a breif moment last nite b/c I was missing them (only the girls). I was not in the same position last Xmas, still hoping X would be w/us all.
For some reason all those stages people refer to that us LBSrs go thru, well the anger, I have not gone thru for or stayed @ for very long. I dont know if its b/c I forgave X from the very start of the A & felt God smiled down @ me for it but.....just give it time.....
I went into work this morning so I can be distracted for I knew that pain would set in whenever I got the kids call, which it did. D11 was surprised OW told them to call their mom to wish me a happy Xmas (barf) yeah right....i know she wants to shoove it in my face thats all, so I can hear what all HER family got them.
I wont see my kids until this Sunday nite , so I told them we will celebrate Xmas then. X was already trying to pawn the girls back off one day early but I will be off all next week and I had plans to celebrate my BFF bday that nite anyways, told him no.Heck you can make EVRYDAY XMAS!!!
